Distance, gaps, do anyone ever notice? I doubt so.
Relied too much on him, and this is what happen.
Distanced myself from most of the people from the start of the year, ever since he enter my life again.
I thought he would stay throughout with me this time round, but I was wrong, totally, everything was just a mistake from the start.
He mean everything to me, but look, what's happening now?
Why does most relationship end up in this manner? I really don't understand. Why?
Is there really a happy ending in relationship? I really hope things end up differently, but, apparently it doesn't. This is just life, isn't it?
Life's just unfair, isn't it. It is, just face the fact, idiot me.
But, I wouldn't say he's a bad guy though. A guy that changes cause of you, so sweet of him. isn't it? But changed back to his old self after lots of things happen.
The reason why I just can't let go of him, too much memories stored, too much feelings put in, for the past 4 years.
If this ever happens to you, what would your decision be? I guess you would end up like me too.
People change and leave, yet memories stays with you, forever.
How am I suppose to face all these alone? Or maybe not really alone? There are some friends always there for me, whenever I need them, but how does all these proves that they are really sincere in being there for you? Or is it just putting up a show, just because you regard them as your close friends?
There's only some that i think are truthful i guess? I really don't know.
Sometimes, it just feels like you have no friends to be there for you, even though there are actually friends around.
Just some trust issue recently i guess.
Apart from that, studies. How to cope?
Grades are dropping, studies getting from bad to worse.
And, apparently, I can't seem to find a study buddy.
Sad life, screwed life, pathetic life, etc.
Everything's just nonsense.
Nonsense me.
